Two giant forces.
Almost equally are strong, but not quite.
You have spent years longing for the day to come when you no longer have to dream your dreams but make them a reality. You have also spent the same number of years living in fear of failure, of the uncomfortable. In short, your fear is winning by a wide margin.
Stop for a second and imagine what would happen when you amp the power of your dreams instead of feeding strength to your fear. What if they collide?
Forget your fear. Your dreams are bigger than any doubt. You are stronger than you give yourself credit to, and you have always been able to do the impossible. What remains to be done is to trust yourself that you can do it because YOU DEFINITELY CAN.
Melt your fear by your strong desire to change your life, to have a better future and to escape the grasp of mediocrity.
If you can see how bright the future is, there is nothing you cannot do. You win, each time. Fear can be damned.